七春　♥　雪子

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

sigh... another sleepless night... guess iam gonna be tiredd tommorrow after noon again... sigh... but its like i really cant get to sleep... just cant get to sleep in a lonesome night... that feeling is really shitty... but cant help it ya? things just have to go that way... sigh... :(

yea... and N levels kinda start next week... sigh... lucky is english and SS... i will try my best in SS... hope i do well? lol... sigh... hard ya... but it ok... iam sure i can do it if i want to... yea... cant post much now as iam gonna get ready to go to school... cant be late... or else iam screwed...

tsk... i gotta go... i need to blog about some stupid people later...

stay tuned...

part 2 later at nite...

I pen down my thoughts at 5:57 AM

Monday, August 27, 2007

hmmm... hey guys... been quite awhile since i every bloged... been busy lately... always out of the house and stuff... only see my mum a few hours every week... but i just cant stand the boredom and loneliness at home... sigh...

speaking about my wallet... was hoping that particular someone who found it would mail it back for me... but i guess things just not went the way i wanted it to be... sigh... so now... got to make a new ez link... ic... get a new wallet and emuse pass... guess thats all i need for now... loosing a wallet can be such a pain in the ass...

fuck sia... the other day was gonna make my ez link... went over to bouna vista... expected there can make... cos it was located there... when i reached... the fucking place was under renovation...
i didn't expect the making ez link place were spread among singapore... guess people do complain that bouna vista is kinda inconvenient ya?

and so... found out the damn place was in AMK... but went there to check it out... when i went there... guess wad... ez link card is needed with a small photograph... "WITH SCHOOL UNIFORM"... i was like sian 1/2... its like... when do i haf even a single pic with school uniform? damn it... i have not been to school for like such a long time... and its like where in the blue hell do i get a school uniform photo... sigh... guess i have to pay more money just to get a stupid
ez link.....

but wad worries me more is the damn ic... sigh... 100 bucks know... where the hell am i gonna find a 100 bucks... mum said dun wanna pay... and i dun wanna rely on my dad all the time for money when my financial status for the moment is broke... cant expect me to be working before my N levels rite? but u guys might say... iam not even going to school... of course can work la... sigh... guess iam gonna study for the whole of september... then after october the third... thats it... end of the fucking N levels... AND IAM FREE... dun need to go school also can take money...

but thinking to find a job... wad can i do... maybe give fliers? i dunno... maybe ask some friends to join me... i dun mind handing out fliers for one month tho... keeps me busy and i will haf more money to spend in the days to come... how nice can it be... haha... still got extra cash from dad and my weekly allowance... woo hoo... i will be kinda rich man... $$$

if life was so easy... everyone would not be complaining in this screwed world... maybe after N levels then get my screwed ic done ya? hahaha...

its like 5.35 in the morning now... and iam kinda cant get to sleep... i dun wanna sleep either... as i would be going to school later... in about an hours time... surprising to hear ya? its time i did some studying in school... although i do some maths at home la... its like i need 10 points to pass N... and i think english chinese and maths would get me through... so iam like kinda practicing on my maths... hope everything goes well during the exams... i haf been failing science and humanities since sec 1??? so its like i dun think iam cut out for it now... but if i wan my fucking O levels... i will just have to work my fucking ass off... cos iam currently only taking 5 subjects...
so its like i need to pass all my subjects to pass my O... i am doing O levels for the sake of getting a diploma...

if i pass my N's and O's... maybe i would take a break for a year... or less... and then go for full time drumming... guess u guys know becoming a drum teacher is kinda like my ambition ya? and iam gonna take a grade 7 or 6 exam.... there are 10 grades of exams... 10 is the lousiest... if i can make it for 7... maybe i can pass 6... i dunno... at least iam half way there to my ambition...

at least i have a certificate for drumming.... a exam... maybe it would be good use if i would get into "lassele"? is that how u spell it... i dunno... haha... planning to go there... and get a diploma in drumming... once i get that... i may be able to get a interview in yamaha after my army... to be a drum teacher... how nice would it be... having a stable income at the age of 24... hope things in life just goes the way i want it to be... its gonna be hard... but... thats all i could think about for now... dad is always pushing me to think about the future... guess he is right after all...

some may still say they dun haf an ambition... see how and stuff... and mostly everyone i know is above my age except shaun jr. and bryan jr. hahaha... guess u guys should kinda think about wad u guys wanna do in the future... maybe shaun u could be a pianist and bryan... i dunno... guess u have to think about it yourself... haha... CAPRICORN... woohooo... lol...

sigh... kinda bored... just killing time to around 6.10? then i could go see wad i need to do... maybe drink a cup of coffee to keep me awake... who knows... iam not even sure myself... haha... just hope i would not fall asleep in class... haha... miss my friends in school... life is just like that when your 16... zZz...

sigh... thinking of someone everyday... but guess that person does not know it ya? sigh... she is my everything... I LOVE HER!!! <3>

thats all i gotta bloged... cool... i typed all of this in about 15 mins... cool huh? just typed whatever that came to my mind...

got to go guys... will try and blog more often in the future so people who come and visit would read more about this 16 year old kid called Zariel.... hahaha...

CIAO~ sleepy... shit... i gotta make coffee... haha...

I pen down my thoughts at 5:23 AM

Thursday, August 16, 2007

sigh... last monday damn suay... guess wad... i lost my wallet... sigh... damn sad... the heart u folded for me is gone... sigh... IC, ezlink, tapz, e-amuse, another adult ezlink, 50 bucks, a topman voucher worth 50 bucks, house key, and other miscellaneous stuff... yea.. thats about it.. so heart pain...

the other day went to report police just incase any shit happens... just pray that someone post back the stupid card ba... someone from heaven... pls help me...

if i could see u right now...
i would be overjoyed...
but...guess its not possible...
i know i will see u some other day...
but i cant help having the tought that i would not see u tomorrow...
but i will see u tml... for sure...

i swear i will be with u forever...
i swear that we will die together...
i swear that ur my everything...

i swear.....

"sniff"

I pen down my thoughts at 3:05 AM

Monday, August 13, 2007

hey... blogged again after quite a long time... been spending alot of time ouside these days... yea... and its english and chinese prelims on monday and tuesday... gotta go school ya? hehe... take exam only... then pon rest of the week... wish me luck guys...

hmm... recently haf been hanging out at dbg... just doing the same old stuf... but now with u always pei-ing me... kinda nice ya? hope we can see each other everyday...

and david... if u need to settle some stuff at cck... call me along... as i should pop by cck once in awhile even tho i haf to study ya? hope u all enjoyed the ton session at chems house... haha...

and... hope u get ur internet up fast... haha... kinda miss chatting with u all nite long... and we can play together... hehe... and srry for all that i haf done... really srry... we go play pool again ba... i wanna play with u again... so enjoyable...

and gonna slp now... tml if got things at school then i blog again ba...

ciao~

I pen down my thoughts at 1:46 AM

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

ok... at this very moment... my pipe is leaking... wtf?!!! boring... some stupid plumber at my hse now... suay ah.... what to do... shit happens... cant help it rite?

sigh... how... prelim starting... damn... language sure can... maths should be alright with some lil bit of revision... but knn... i how long never study liao... revising my stuff can be a pain in the ass ya?

studies... wish can get over with it fast... but then again... the more u hate the thing... the slower time passes when ur doing it... i just wanna get over with some stupid secondary school... then go drumming... full time... how nice can that be... drumming all day long... practicing... playing songs i like... being like my dad someday... haha...

erm... and to u... srry about today... guess i was kinda over reacting? or am i just jealous... sigh... guess iam getting to worked up about certain things... the fear is still within me... sigh... only you can help me... just stay with me k? :)

bla... end this post ba... erm... i think i will approach u guys if i need help in my studies... hope u guys help me too... thanks ah.... haha...

nite nite... zZz

I pen down my thoughts at 1:29 AM

Monday, August 6, 2007

hmm... ok david... if u ever view my blog again just to tell u this...

is not that i dun wanna trust you... i do... but not as much as before... being a human as well... if hear alot of bad things from other people... once natural reaction is to re-evaluate this person... yea... i did mine... i dun need to say about money problems... but it concerns the rest of your friends... they treat you as friends... thats why they lend money to u... but... in ur case... if u have the money to play GF/DDR... i dun see the reason y u owe so many people... may it be a dollar or two... but no... its tens... there is still ppl u owe money... besides the people mentioned at kangs blog... now the matter is... y are u taking so long to pay... besides... now ur working... even tho u pay them back or not... things wont change u see... ur buddies... aviod u... cos... put it in an ugly way... "all talk no action"... and about the if u nvr go return money to kang on that perticular day i t"tok"... u dun need to come and tell me ur just joking... anyone will take that as a promise... u broke it... ppl accepted u into cck... but u broke the trust... once liao... and now again... things aren't gonna change for the better... and i believe our friendship is becoming worse too... i know u nvr tua me or wad... but... its like... so many people... so called anti u... not because of money... is how u do things and how ur telling them wad ur doing... i think u should understand wad iam talking about... now... i haf doubts about u too... i admit... u know iam a straight forward person... there is no point beating round the bush for all this things... i still treat u like a fren... thats y iam telling u all this... let me ask u this... when are u gonna face up to reality... ur running everywhere... now i guess ur avioding the cck people... that day sheng tat came... then u ran to paragon with the others? for wad reason... i asked u y... u told me no mood? u dun come and bullshit with me please... u think i will buy a stupid story called no mood? that day i asked u about wad u tell kang about me and suet... then u said only that... i doubt so... and wad happened to my bed... u also know... u PROMISED not tell anyone... but u still tell shaun... so... that shows one thing already... ur not trustable in a sence... u think iam not fucking angry with u for that? i tell u... that day i was angry ok? if u did'nt know... u dun wanna see me angry... trust me... if u wan everyone to gain back ur trust? all i can say is good luck and have fun... no one at dbg knows everything... u can come to dbg... no one is stoping u... then DM no one to talk to run to DDR... please... stop running... ppl say... ur like that since 3 years ago? so i was thinking... u borrow money and run dunno where and tu tu tu until ppl hate u then u try and return money? u ownself think wad u haf done... then u can still tell me u can pang seh ur girlfriend cos sheng tat was coming dbg? wad kind of a person are u... and wad in the world are u thinking... if u think u can run... then go ahead... now u still haf frens around u... i think i should treasure them... cos all the trust with u at cck... is gone... i cant help u this time le... i tot of trying to talk to kang... asking him y anti u... but after wad kang said... i tot to myself... i think just let kang do his stuff... u know kang is a sensible guy... he knows wad is he doing... u think he will hate u for no apparent reason... and dun aspect people to pity u... and be ur fren... i dun think u want people to pity u either... now put it in another ugly way... u brought this upon urself to this pathetic state... running frm everyone u see... if u think wad i wrote hear is bullshit... then u can choose not to find me ever again... i told u also... everyone can be a cb kia at times... now iam being one... so i can take it i never knew u in the first place either... so thats all... hope u will think about wad i said...

good bye... iam leaving u david...

back to stories...

i haf been happy... very happy... with u... for the past week... is like dbg dbg dbg... hahaha... so no life rite? but i enjoy myself and iam happy... thats the thing... kai xin jiu hao... haha... hope to see u soon...

IAM "ALIVE" AGAIN...

ciao~

I pen down my thoughts at 1:39 AM

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

since awhile since i blogged... AND... IAM FUCKING BROKE... hahaha... SOMEONE FROM THE HEAVENS... PLEASE HELP ME... how... no money is a pain in the ass... sigh...

how long i nvr go school liao... let me think... one and a half week? haha... but nxt week must go... prelim liao... i also dunno... must call my fren ask again... O SHIT... then now my fren say i fucking got mock exam... WTF WTF... GOOD GAME... IAM SCREWED...

but it ok... chinese nia... should be eh sai de la lol...

nothing to blog about anyway... LOL...

ciao~

I pen down my thoughts at 11:02 PM